That’s the temp of my little Z this evening. Last night she coughed some and woke up with a raspy throat, but went to school this morning in a happy mood. I rationalized that all of us have gunk in our throat sometimes in the morning and after we are good and awake it passes
When I picked her up at school this evening I could see in her eyes that she didn’t feel well. She climbed on my lap at home and took little catnap. She didn’t want any supper and just stayed curled up in a blanket on the sofa. Again – I told myself she may just be tired from a long week and tiring day.
When we went upstairs she crawled into her bed – voluntarily. That sealed the deal. I had to leave the state of denial I was in and move to a new state -called reality. I took her temp and administered the Motrin – the only thing she will willingly take. She requested some music and was asleep in less than five minutes. It’s official. She’s sick.
Maybe no one else does this when their child gets sick, but I start worrying about how much sleep I’m going to lose and how I will keep up with all my responsibilities because of the sleep deprivation. Is that awful or what? Of course it breaks my heart to see her feeling so bad, and I will do whatever necessary to help her feel better. But way underneath it all I’m feeling selfish, and on top of that guilty – for feeling selfish.
Well, there. I’ve said it. Call the authorities. Take my name off the nomination list for Mother of the Year. And if the nights of rocky sleep are ahead as I suspect, be prepared for even more ridiculous, pointless and secret-revealing posts.
Filed under: Daily Deedles | Tagged: fever, guilty, motherhood, selfish, sick child, sleep deprivation
It sure sound like Z is getting a virus or upper resp. cond. I hope she had a good night and will be better soon.
I think every mother goes through a time of not wanting their child to be sick, running on a few hours of sleep and just wishing everything was sort of normal. Been there and done that.
How many mothers has not been guilty of doing the same thing. That doesn’t make us bad mothers….just truthful ones.
It reminds of the Jesus story about “he who has no sin can throw the first stone.” — I doubt there’s one (truthful) mom around who hasn’t felt like that!
Hope she is feeling better!
Love ya girlie!